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給老k

先來說燈管好了。
住在女生宿舍裡的日子雖然非常無趣，但還是常常在書桌前發呆起來。
有一次，當寢室只剩下我一個人的時候，一波非常微弱的茲茲聲響伴隨著日光燈管光線的顏色細微變化著。原本的青白光會逐漸轉為青黃、黃褐、灰紫而然回到青白。電的變化反正在薄弱的的聲波，如果外頭的日常聲響再多一點就會被吃掉了吧。
極接近故事中的隱晦。
我用數位相機的錄影功能把那隨機發生變化的燈管拍下來。（真詭異，看見燈在閃滅時居然先想到了這些，還沒想到該要換支燈管了。）
因為沉默，所以知道你正在做的作品就是在重現（進而放大）那個下午發生的隱晦。在表演那天我的情緒除了還有辦展的緊張外，另外有種秘密被全世界知道了而且成長了許多。
沒想到之後在華山還有宇宙激光的現身！
我在宇宙激光掃射全場的時候，心中一直期盼著光線通過點燈器的時刻。茲茲。
燈管的茲茲被坦露在我們跟前了。隱晦的轉變，神秘感褪去。
我還是會偶爾懷念我當初遇見的日光燈管。
但是你的燈已經進化到茲茲之外了。



我剛剛在zabu睡著了，醒來之後我記得寫信所以寫了。

小8
20070521

給小8

我明白在我們生活中出現壞掉的日光燈是多麼的讓人興奮，
空間亮了又暗、暗了又亮，
他越是激烈 我就越放棄自己的接受他的催眠。

我也明白我將這種現象，刻意的呈現，就離開了在日常生活裡的狀態。

他已經離開一個日常、不該發生的場景
進入了一個什麼事情都可以發生的場景

他的不正常催眠也變成了表演
那他的日常樣貌消失去了哪裡

這樣理性、線性的思考 好像沒有了未來…. 


但是我覺得

俺有活力 俺有熱情 俺就是未來

To dear k,

I wanted to talk about the fluorescent lamp first.
It’s been very bored living in the school dorm though, I couldn’t help
idling in front of my desk.

Once a time, when I was alone in the dorm room, there’s a very weak
BZZZZ sound came with the color of the light which changed slightly.
The color changed began with blue in white and then yellow in blue,
then it turned to brown, dirty purple and finally became blue in
white. The variation in the BZZZZ responded to the electric current,
it altered insensibly that could be swallowed by the sound of our
daily life.
It’s so imperceptible, so close to an inner metaphor of a story.

I recorded this random process by my dc. (It’s wired that
these thoughts came into my mind first instead of thinking changed it
to a new tube.)

Because of the exhibition “Sounds Off”, I knew you’re
working on a new project, reconstructing (and even going further!) this
Inner metaphor happened that afternoon. The night you performed the
project, I feel the tension all the time. Not only I am the curator, 
but the whole world discovered and shared my little secret. The secret
seemed stronger.

And then the laser showed up from the outer space that out of my expectation!

The laser scanned the gallery room back and forth, I was excited,
waiting for the moment when it ran right through the starter. Light was on. It BZZZZ. The light BZZZZ.
BZZZZ of the fluorescent lamp appeared to us. It’s not a metaphor any
more. Nothing was really mysterious to me.
I missed the lamp occurred to me that afternoon sometimes.
Your lamp was more beyond the BZZZZ I think, I won’t forget it’s like
a surprise from outer space.

I was napping in Zabu, now I woke up and remember I promise to write a
letter to you(r project). so I did.

2007/5/21, shauba

To dear shauba,

I understand how exciting it could be when we founded the fluorescent lamp out of function.
It lights the space on and off.
When this situation went more crazy, I gave up myself more to accept it and let it hypnotize me.

And I do understand if I turned this situation to a project, presenting it on propose. It won’t be the state as we experienced in the daily life.

My lamp came out from the daily scene that it was not supposed to happen.
It came to a art scene that it could happen anything.

When its abnormal hypnogenesis became part of the performance,
where goes its other parts?

I couldn’t tell if this concept can go on.

But I thought I am full of energy and passion that it’s enough for me to build a future.